Stream of thoughts

Well. Comes as no surprise to me that my last post was almost a year ago. I am horrible at journaling. Things happen, and I don't want to write about them. I will try to do better. Maybe each year I can post a few more things. I looked at my list of things I wanted to do this year, and I did some of them, but not all. I did manage to lose 50 pounds! (But feel like I'm gaining it all back with holiday food and lethargy.) Having a horrible time with boredom and depression. There. I said it. I need something to do, but I don't know what. There are things I could do around the house (see list posted earlier this year), but I am not motivated. I already volunteer (Freecycle) but am so burned out I'm not sure I should continue. Five years is a long time. I love animals, but have already volunteered for the APL, and found that disillusioning (is that even a word?!). I like children but am not sure I want to work around them. I'm too much of an idealist I guess. I should write more. I have prompt books on writing but do not crack them open. I've thought about trying to get a part-time job, but then I have a bad leg day and it reminds me why I'm not working in the first place. I am probably addicted to Tramadol. I notice that when I let it lapse that my mood plummets. Well of course, opiates would make you feel better! I am reading books again, which is nice.